Thank you Lygolas for your input, and words of kindness. That was really nice to find and I really appreciate what you said.
Yes, but you mustn't tell anyone. If the common folks knew Mara the Immortal cried blood tears over the fate of a simple beast, imagine how long it would take me to retrain them to keep them fearful of my wicked ways?
And then... the mail comes that day. And there's a rejection letter from my writing career and it says something really hateful or hurtful... and there I am. Crying in despair, feeling frozen and stuck in the unforgiving elements, and furiously helpless in the midst of my impotent rage.
My point is, absolutely you can *make* your daily card fit your day. You can even do the opposite, and try to force yourself NOT to have the day your daily describes. Or, you can be quiet... observant rather than reactive, just as you describe. You can let the day's events occur, and let the Tarot part of your mind just observe them. Observe and consider the messages you were given. Who cares if it "fits"? Maybe by the end of the day, the message fits in a way you had never anticipated.
And that's when you learn!
I remember one day when I drew the Tower and cringed. And that day changed my life, yes, and changed my world view forever, yes... but the earth-shattering changes the Tower brought that day were all good ones. When I drew it that morning, I was like, "Oh man, oh great, what the hell kinda day am I having?" (One that blew my crown chakra off and forever changed my life for the better, that's what.)
What I have found is over time you will very gradually get a subtle texture to the card's overall meanings, I'm sure you've experienced this with your Druidcraft deck (glad to hear your joining us with a Gothic though, it's well worth the study to a Tarot lover). As you consider your card, you are learning about all the sides to the card's personality (not just what YOU think the card means) by letting it be, and letting it show you.
*Mara hovers into her kitchen and pours a freshly brewed cup of eye of newt, with coffee grounds sprinkled in. She sits and shuffles, and splits the deck for her daily, and a wickedass smile spreads over her face*
Oh that's funny... you know, the cards are wickedly funny sometimes. I write all of that, and then stop and pull a daily....
Today's draw is the Tower, reversed.
First thought is I'm surprised by how many Majors are around me of late, but that's ok. This Tower today is empty, there's no one inside. I just know it. The touch of the lightning, Divine Illumination, reaches the turrets so delicately, it looks like an electric carress - the information comes flooding in from a sense of love, but the Tower won't really shake, won't really fall, and no one's really inside, so no one really is going to be hurt by the Tower's fall either. Nor are they going to be illuminated.
Something strange, the ghost. I just got really mad at him, like, "What the hell are you still here for anyhow? GO!"
The moon is calming to me though. The moon is most often the symbol my decks use to reference my Guide, always there, always serenely watching.
Edited to add: Later this day, the Tower showed up alright when I received a call from preschool that my son had broken his arm. I'm not surprised that my initial reading was a bit off, I had the sense of no harm coming to any, but that wasn't exactly true at all.
Some details ended up being very correct... the fall happened when he wasn't at home, and neither was I. The Tower was empty when the fall happened, yes. The Moon (symbolizing me, as his mother I believe in retrospect) was not there to be the watchful source of Divine Love.
What is particularly interesting is how he broke his arm. I am told, he was playing in the playhouse and jumped from the window. People falling from a Tower with windows is the RWS illustration for this card. The cards were being literal in some ways, a fall from heights, but the Vargo deck does not illustrate that particular aspect of the card, as Coleman chose to for hers.
My little demon is doing fine and it's not slowing him down in the least, trust me.
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The simple fact that you tried to help this animal speaks highly of your character, your ability to care and love. You are a good person. And in truth you should not feel as badly as it sounded you did.
Yes, but you mustn't tell anyone. If the common folks knew Mara the Immortal cried blood tears over the fate of a simple beast, imagine how long it would take me to retrain them to keep them fearful of my wicked ways?Quote:Here is what I wanted to comment on. This is exactly the approach I encourage most. I have daily pulls that make me cringe, and I promise to myself, "Aint no way...." That is to say, I have gotten down right angry at my daily (be it rune, card, or both) and told myself, "NO! I don't want to have an Isa/9 of swords day. I feel great, and I don't wanna mope around, NO! I won't!"
If I do not understand the message of the cards as I read them, do not force a defination... do not try and make something out of it that is not there. Let the day, your fate and the cards tell me the story in their own way, in their own time.
And then... the mail comes that day. And there's a rejection letter from my writing career and it says something really hateful or hurtful... and there I am. Crying in despair, feeling frozen and stuck in the unforgiving elements, and furiously helpless in the midst of my impotent rage.
My point is, absolutely you can *make* your daily card fit your day. You can even do the opposite, and try to force yourself NOT to have the day your daily describes. Or, you can be quiet... observant rather than reactive, just as you describe. You can let the day's events occur, and let the Tarot part of your mind just observe them. Observe and consider the messages you were given. Who cares if it "fits"? Maybe by the end of the day, the message fits in a way you had never anticipated.
And that's when you learn!
I remember one day when I drew the Tower and cringed. And that day changed my life, yes, and changed my world view forever, yes... but the earth-shattering changes the Tower brought that day were all good ones. When I drew it that morning, I was like, "Oh man, oh great, what the hell kinda day am I having?" (One that blew my crown chakra off and forever changed my life for the better, that's what.)
What I have found is over time you will very gradually get a subtle texture to the card's overall meanings, I'm sure you've experienced this with your Druidcraft deck (glad to hear your joining us with a Gothic though, it's well worth the study to a Tarot lover). As you consider your card, you are learning about all the sides to the card's personality (not just what YOU think the card means) by letting it be, and letting it show you.
*Mara hovers into her kitchen and pours a freshly brewed cup of eye of newt, with coffee grounds sprinkled in. She sits and shuffles, and splits the deck for her daily, and a wickedass smile spreads over her face*
Oh that's funny... you know, the cards are wickedly funny sometimes. I write all of that, and then stop and pull a daily....
Today's draw is the Tower, reversed.
First thought is I'm surprised by how many Majors are around me of late, but that's ok. This Tower today is empty, there's no one inside. I just know it. The touch of the lightning, Divine Illumination, reaches the turrets so delicately, it looks like an electric carress - the information comes flooding in from a sense of love, but the Tower won't really shake, won't really fall, and no one's really inside, so no one really is going to be hurt by the Tower's fall either. Nor are they going to be illuminated.
Something strange, the ghost. I just got really mad at him, like, "What the hell are you still here for anyhow? GO!"
The moon is calming to me though. The moon is most often the symbol my decks use to reference my Guide, always there, always serenely watching.
Edited to add: Later this day, the Tower showed up alright when I received a call from preschool that my son had broken his arm. I'm not surprised that my initial reading was a bit off, I had the sense of no harm coming to any, but that wasn't exactly true at all.
Some details ended up being very correct... the fall happened when he wasn't at home, and neither was I. The Tower was empty when the fall happened, yes. The Moon (symbolizing me, as his mother I believe in retrospect) was not there to be the watchful source of Divine Love.
What is particularly interesting is how he broke his arm. I am told, he was playing in the playhouse and jumped from the window. People falling from a Tower with windows is the RWS illustration for this card. The cards were being literal in some ways, a fall from heights, but the Vargo deck does not illustrate that particular aspect of the card, as Coleman chose to for hers.
My little demon is doing fine and it's not slowing him down in the least, trust me.
"Don't you see how wonderful life can be... when you're maniacal?" - Plankton
I want to sit with them for a while, drinking in the imagary, touching each of them and getting familar with each and every one. More on this can be found in another forum here, Tarot Musings. There are some interesting feelings going through me as I touch and take in these cards, feelings I did not anticipate nor am I sure I can accurately describe with words. But that is for later. I will still be checking in here daily to see what is going on, and who knows, if the cards talk to me, my daily read may not be something I have control over; the cards may lead me there.
